On this chilly Christmas Eve, having just returned from a Christmas Eve service at church, my heart is heavy and I feel numb. Not a good sign I would say to myself. As I reflect on Jesus' birth and what God has given me through His Son, it makes my heart heavy to know that there are several people out there in the world that have yet to hear this great news. I have been asking God what He wants to do in my life...and I haven't heard the answer....yet.
I recently just finished reading God's Smuggler by Brother Andrew. It tells the life story about Brother Andrew's journey to become a missionary to smuggle Bibles into places where Christianity is banned. You should pick up a copy today. I received mine free from www.opendoorsUSA.org . This is his organization that is still operating today.
This numbness I feel - not sure why I have it right now. In the past, I was numb because I didn't want to feel the pain and hurts of life. But I think this numbness is different. I am tired of tuning these people out. You know, the ones who don't know Him. It's like I am being numb to them. Not caring whether or not they live eternally or not. Being selfish. I don't want to live like that anymore. I want God to use me. Fully.
My journey through life dealing with depression, anxiety, self-injury, and other addictions to my NEW life without it.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas!
I pray each of you embrace the wonder of Christmas this year. Regardless of how dysfunctional your family may be. How overwhelming your circumstances may seem. How challenging the New Year is shaping up to be. Please remember this:
When you couldn't get to God, God came for you!
"Watch for this - a virgin will get pregnant and bear a son; They will name him Immanuel (Hebrew for "God is with us")." ~Matthew 1:23
As far as God is concerned, you're worth it! Ponder that this Christmas. Chew on that this Christmas. And if you can find the courage, embrace that this Christmas. Jesus came for you.
I pray each of you embrace the wonder of Christmas this year. Regardless of how dysfunctional your family may be. How overwhelming your circumstances may seem. How challenging the New Year is shaping up to be. Please remember this:
When you couldn't get to God, God came for you!
"Watch for this - a virgin will get pregnant and bear a son; They will name him Immanuel (Hebrew for "God is with us")." ~Matthew 1:23
As far as God is concerned, you're worth it! Ponder that this Christmas. Chew on that this Christmas. And if you can find the courage, embrace that this Christmas. Jesus came for you.
Over this holiday, I plan to be resting. In His love. In His grace. In His peace. In His passion for you and for me. I hope you can take some time to do the same.
God's richest blessings upon you this Christmas. Our God is truly with us. See you next year.
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