On this chilly Christmas Eve, having just returned from a Christmas Eve service at church, my heart is heavy and I feel numb. Not a good sign I would say to myself. As I reflect on Jesus' birth and what God has given me through His Son, it makes my heart heavy to know that there are several people out there in the world that have yet to hear this great news. I have been asking God what He wants to do in my life...and I haven't heard the answer....yet.
I recently just finished reading God's Smuggler by Brother Andrew. It tells the life story about Brother Andrew's journey to become a missionary to smuggle Bibles into places where Christianity is banned. You should pick up a copy today. I received mine free from www.opendoorsUSA.org . This is his organization that is still operating today.
This numbness I feel - not sure why I have it right now. In the past, I was numb because I didn't want to feel the pain and hurts of life. But I think this numbness is different. I am tired of tuning these people out. You know, the ones who don't know Him. It's like I am being numb to them. Not caring whether or not they live eternally or not. Being selfish. I don't want to live like that anymore. I want God to use me. Fully.
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